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A few years later, during the early to mid
seventies, I happen to be be looking through some of the UFO literature I had gathered. I
stumbled across one of the silliest notions that I had ever heard. Some
postulated that God could have actually been an astronaut from an advanced civilization! I
then noticed another weird notion that was presented in some of the my UFO literature.
This time the idea was presented that UFO’s could actually be angels!
These notions did indeed seem silly at first. But when I finished
laughing and got over the emotions of possibly being sacrilegious, I took a good hard look
at the logic and arguments behind their ideas. They reasoned that if evolutionary advanced
beings from another world had visited Earth a few thousand years ago, they would
probably have seemed "godlike" to an unsophisticated people. Believe it
or not, these ideas began to appeal to me and make sense.
The people were who were proposing these radical ideas, to my surprise,
appeared to be learned people in scientific circles. They were people who sported
Ph.D’s and Masters degrees in different various scientific fields such as physics and
science.
Some of these people had much more to lose than to gain by making these
bold new concepts public. Granted, some of these sincere people were also considered
crackpots and lunatics, but some were consider sound academic and scientific types. Some
reminded me of others who had gone before in daring to consider the previously
unthinkable, and had made great discoveries as a result. People like those who first
considered such things as the world being round instead of flat, the possibility of
traveling to the moon, or even the possibility of man being able to fly in heavier than
air vehicles. And what about the first person to claim the Earth was not the center of our
solar system, but instead claimed the sun was at the center. These people not only put
their academic credentials and reputations on the line, but in some cases they risked and
lost their lives. The ones who suffered the most seemed to be the ones labeled as heretics
by the "church."
Like many, these strange new ideas were only considered as
possibilities by me, but I wanted to believe. Thus, I began to look for evidence to prove
these notions were true. My search began to broaden and venture into other closets of the
strange.
Psychokinesis, mental telepathy, and other aspects of ESP began to
capture my interest also. These subjects seemed to naturally fit in with the new ideas and
notions which were beginning to change my old ways of thinking. In most, if not all, of
the UFO magazines, I found ads for books and literature dealing with various things I now
call the "occult." Then they were labeled under the more scientifically
acceptable term of the paranormal. Merely by reading the advertisements of this literature
I was introduced to the concept which said within every human being lay latent psychic
powers which were waiting to be unleashed.
I also remember reading some ads placed by some who felt that
extraterrestrials, call the "Space Brothers," were sending messages to certain
types of individuals by mental telepathy. The messages warned about upcoming cataclysmic
changes which were coming upon the Earth and the "Space Brothers" were soon
going to come en masse in their flying saucers to rescue certain prepared
individuals who would receive them. Even I considered this "far out"—no pun
intended. Even though I initially read the ads and snickered, in the back of my mind I
seriously wondered.
Like a real student, I eventually began my own private experiments with
psychokinesis and mental telepathy. But I did not try drugs to help kick-start my latent
abilities. I was scared of putting chemicals in my body. Yet, if I had known how many
people discovered them to be a doorway to the paranormal—I may have been induced to
try it. But even to this day, I am glad I never purchased a ticket for one of those trips.
Too many of those who did found their trip was one way.
Yet, I was now officially hooked by the ideas—ideas that became
better known by the the term 'New Age.' Thankfully, I was set free by God's grace through
faith in the Biblical Jesus Christ. But before long, New Age Priests and priestesses like
Shirley MacLaine were confidently affirming "I am God." Their pulpit was
national television, and their congregations were some of the largest audiences
imaginable.
Like many of you reading this material, I did not consider something
valid unless it was tangible to my mind after personal examination. The Christian Bible
was an old book about old dead people and past events in which no eyewitnesses were alive
to give me a first hand account of what really happened. Nor was I given the privilege to
question these witnesses to determine their reliability and credibility. On the other
hand, experiments and reported experiences dealing with the paranormal seemingly supplied
that element of personal examination and validation.
As some may image, during my time of delving into New Age practices I
began to encounter some paranormal activity in my living quarters. Yet, I did not draw a
correlation between these occurrences and my strange activities at the time. I now believe
these events were connected. I also believe these occurrences were not merely random
paranormal psychic activity. I am now convinced that it was dangerous spiritual activity
of the demonic type.
I relate one incident as follows.
I remember having become somewhat fascinated with what made flying
saucers able to fly as they did. Reportedly, they had been tracked by radar going up to
30,000 miles per hour. They could stop on a dime or accelerate to this speed and even
higher almost instantaneously. At these speeds they could make right hand turns or even
reverse direction instantaneously—without slowing down. I reasoned that to figure out
how this was done would be tantamount to making the biggest discovery of the century and
maybe even the millennium. I also figured a scientific discovery in this area would change
all of life on Earth for the better.
One night while meditating on things I had read after researching the
electromagnetic spectrum; and also studying wave, vibration, and particle theory; my mind
seemed to kick into a gear I had never experienced before. It literally seemed to be
working independent of my own desires and controls. It was like someone had turned on a
television behind my eyeballs. I seemed to be suddenly deluged with reasonings of
relationships between vibration, wave, gravity, and mass. These relationships seemed to
not only explain how gravity worked, but also the fundamentals of how to control it.
I was both intrigued and amazed by what was happening. But after
several intense hours of this, I literally became worn out. I decided that I had better
stop the train of thought and get some rest because I had to go to work in a few hours. To
my utter surprise—and to my dismay—I could not stop what was happening! With
that realization, my intrigue was replaced by fear. I was literally terrified because I
did not understand what was happening. Not only were the thoughts and paradigms not
stopping so I could sleep—they seemed to be intensifying. I resisted to the point
beyond exhaustion.
As far as I can remember, Linda my young wife, had never seen me cry
out of fear—till that night. Even at the writing of this manuscript, I do not
remember how this frightening experience ended. I know I was more desperate than I had
ever been in my life. And in my desperation I believe I muttered a prayer to a God I was
not sure was there.
As a result of this experience, I put away everything dealing with
UFOs—for a while.
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Revised: May 02, 2006.
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